Re/Discovery at 40+

Re/Discovery at 40+: The Road Ahead

The older I get the more I appreciate these 3, not-so little, words: "How are you?"

Three little words that have such great depth and pack so much power. I can honestly say that I didn't honor them in my younger years as much as I probably should have.

When my cousin reached out to ask how I was doing, I was ready to give my standard, templated response. In that moment, I felt, what I know now to be the unction of the Holy Spirit, telling me to pause, sit with that question, examine my feelings, and then respond from that place with pure honesty and vulnerability.

My response took a little longer than I anticipated due to the length of time needed for me to truly assess my feelings. I needed that pause though...more than I realized. If you're an iphone user, you're familiar with the jumping gray dots (if not, I'll continue to cover you in prayer, lol), I'm sure my cousin may have been looking at those gray dots and thinking-"What is taking her sooo long?" Or, perhaps that's just me deflecting my own feelings. Often I am in such a rush with everything, including texts sent and received. If I text you, I'm staring intensely at my phone awaiting the response, frustrated with every second of the wait. In retrospect, I see how that same angst carries over through various aspects of my life.

God's timing is perfect!

In those moment of pause, I realized that this sense of rejuvenescence that I am experiencing is reminiscent of a rebirth. Not fresh out of the box, brand new. But, different than before. I'm still mom. Still daughter. Still sister. Still friend. Though there are specs of familiarity, here and there, this restored, dare I say, refurbished version of me requires a bit of re/ learning and re/discovery.

But first, allow me to re/introduce myself....

My name is, Leah, and I am a 40+ beautiful woman re/discovering all the things that make me who I am in this season, in Christ.